Plans

As many of you know, I planned on moving to New York City about 6 months ago. I began this plan literally one year ago, had a budget, found a roommate, and expressed a lot of faith for my vision to take this concrete jungle by storm.

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Needless to say, with wise counsel in my life, I decided that last November was not God’s best time for me to move to NYC. I did go to explore, connect with others, and to be re-inspired by the city that never sleeps.

Very shortly after my 2 week stay, I experienced a rough season. I was questioning if I heard God, if I was going crazy for even trying to go, if I looked stupid for even saying a word about my vision to people, the list goes on and on. My mind waged war within. I wanted to live for Christ wholeheartedly but I was so heartbroken. Where was God in this situation?

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I slowly began to drift away from trusting Jesus and His plan for my life. I began to disobey the smallest things because I was careless. In my mind, since God did not care about my plans, I was not going to care about His. But even then, I knew deep inside that God was looking out for me, even when I didn’t see it. I forced myself to stay in church, to serve every week, to invest in others’ visions with what I could, and to simply be faithful with what I had.

I wish I could say it was easy and that I was joyful this entire time, but I would be lying.

It was HARD. Actually, it sometimes still is hard.

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I felt like the last one picked out on a team, like God forgot about me and my desires, like everything I had done was unnoticed, etc. And even THEN, I still was faithful with what I had.

A few weeks before my birthday, I was tagged on an IG post for a summer internship and it caught me off-guard because I honestly did not think I was qualified for it. The person that tagged me encouraged me to apply and that same night I filled out that application.

The same week of my birthday, I got an email saying I was one of the girls being considered for the duration of the summer internship. So I interviewed and I just let God take care of everything else. I took a vacation in Miami for my birthday, and it was as if the enemy just wanted to destroy my entire hope. My purse, wallet, cash, and camera got stolen. (blog post here) And you can only imagine how I felt. But even THEN, I praised God and declared Him faithful in my time of loss/violation.

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As much as I wanted to just say forget this faith walk, I kept surrendering everything to God. I experienced so much loss in the last year that I felt I had no better option than to continue surrendering my plans and will to Him. Through all my emotions/faith being shaken, I got a second email saying I would get another interview opportunity that would determine my plans for the summer.

I got excited yet nervous because I was not expecting to be a part. I felt like this was too good to be true, too good for me, too big and amazing for little ol’ me.

(WHY DO I UN-QUALIFY MYSELF SO MUCH?!)

As the second interview ended, I prayed and surrendered everything to God all over again. I left my plans in God’s hands. I did my part and now it was up to Him to do His. I only wanted to be accepted if this was part of His plan for my life. And guess what?

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I AM GOING TO C A L I F O R N I A

FOR THE A SEAT AT THE TABLE INTERNSHIP

WITH BIANCA OLTHOFF.

*crying emoji*

What is life right now?!

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I am still beyond overwhelmed trying to make sense of why I have clothing piles laying out everywhere as I try to pack. It would take another 30 minutes for me to type up all the emotions I have had experienced in the last four weeks when I found out I got in the internship. Talk about excitement, expectation, faith, joy, hope, anticipation, a little bit of nervousness, man.

The only thing I can say is that GOD IS FAITHFUL. He is able. He is gracious. He is our Shepherd.

Can I just brag on Him? I literally don’t know how this happened. Six months ago I was crying and questioning everything in my life, and now I am rejoicing and thanking God for His unexplainable plans. Wow. WOW. W O W. My mind is blown.

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If you have been questioning God’s plan for your life, know He HAS you. He really does. Even when things do not make sense—trust Him. Even when all hell breaks loose—TRUST HIM. Even when everything seems to be going in the opposite direction—TRUST HIM. I saw myself in New York City and now I am going to Cali. LOL. God is funny. But oh so intentional; who knows, maybe this is a stepping stone? Maybe this is needed before NYC? I do not know. And you know what? That is okay. We have to learn how to be okay with not knowing it all. I have tried and tried to figure out my life and I fail every single time. That is part of having FAITH. It is not faith when you see it all; it is faith when you don’t see it all and still trust.

I cannot wait to get to California. This is my first time going to the West Coast and yooooo….. I am about to be tanning everyday. LOL. But really, I am going to have a blast and I cannot wait to share my journey with you all!

Join me in my California journey starting next week. Check out my IG and FB for more updates. Until next time!

#LiveLimitless || Tima G. ❤

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New year. New perspective.

The ending of 2016 was a weird one. One that challenged my faith, one that showed me weaknesses I didn’t even realize I had, one that seemed and felt unfinished.

Maybe I was the only one feeling that way, or maybe you still feel that way about 2016. I think it was a challenging year for a lot of people. I had many wins, but also many lessons that are still being taught and tested in my life. What are we supposed to do in the middle of this awkward tension? Do we quit? Do we say be gone and just pretend like everything is okay?

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With every single one of these opportunities to quit, I have learned to value my intimate moments with God more. In the midst of my struggles, I found myself more vulnerable with God than ever before. I am learning to be quiet, to be still, to open my mouth and be real, to keep the faith, to confess His word, to press through trials, to accept His grace when I don’t deserve it, to simply receive His love.

So many times we question God’s character because we don’t see results when we want to see them or how we want to see them. But this is really when our beliefs are tested and proved true. Do we still believe He is Healer when we get a cold or sprain an ankle? Do we still believe He is Provider when the promotion has not come yet? Do we still believe He is Comforter when we where backstabbed by our best friend? Do we still believe He is Truth when everyone at work lies and manipulates the rules just to get to the top?

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Clearly I have been thinking a lot about beliefs, faith, and God’s faithfulness in the last few weeks. Faith is such a wonder, such a mystery, but a sweet reality. I pray you faith becomes more real in your life this year. It is so simple yet because we overthink, we complicate it. And that’s when the tension begins to happen, leading to an opportunity of faith or doubt. I will admit that I began to doubt many things about my path, my career, my desires, my purpose. But even when I didn’t and still have not seen everything I thought I would have already, I still proclaim and believe He is Faithful.

To help my mind focus on His faithfulness and His Sovereignty, I am taking a break from social media and other things that I believe I need to pull way from. There is nothing wrong with social media, but I firmly believe that we can become consumed by it if not managed properly.

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I am doing this as part of our church’s 21 day fasting period this month. Fasting has never been so imperative in my life than this season. There are things that only can happen by us pulling away from distractions and simply being in tune with God intentionally. I pray you take the time and hear the Holy Spirit speak. Maybe you need to pull away from certain things in your life. It can range from food to hobbies to people. Just hear Him out. He will not lead you astray.

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I have so many expectations this year! For me, family, friends, church, and all of YOU my supporters. I love you all so much. I will be praying for all of you during this consecration time and would love to hear your thoughts on my blog, what you want to see more of, and even questions you might have about me. Share share share.

Talk to you in 21 days.

#LiveLimitless | Tima G. ❤

 

Updates: February Love and March Madness

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Amazing Photo By: Ryanne Gordon (@rib_of_man)

 

 

It has been about two months since I have written a post… I know, I know! All the consistency I had going and then I crash. What happened? Let me catch you guys on what has been going on in my life.

The month of February was full of tasks, rethinking, and analyzing the vision I have for my life this year. In short, February was grind time internally and at home. I had plate full of school work, multiple shifts on same day basis, and the free time I did have, I spent it myself to rest. It was a busy month but of course, I took time to majorly enjoy it in two different occasions.

Valentine’s Day!

“But wait, aren’t you single?”

Well…. Here is the big announcement..

I AM. lol

This year, instead of being grumpy, feeling lonely and forgotten about, God reminded me to have fun on February 13th. According to some women, this day is called Galentine’s Day. I saw the idea on my job’s IG. I began to think and asked one of my friends if she could host a “Galentine’s” party at her house. She loved the idea and to my surprise, it turned out to be an event for multiple single ladies I know. The idea came out of the blue (more of the Holy Spirit lol) but in return gave me an opportunity to embrace singleness, sisterhood, and the simple things in life.

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During this time we all enjoyed yummy food, snacks, and took pictures like no other. I loved every single moment and I didn’t even remember I was single! I felt comfortable in my own skin, around the gals, and completely free! (In which reminds me of the importance of friendships that allow you to be YOU and YOU alone. Cherish those :D)

VACATION!

Then two weeks later, the turnup was R E A L. Three of my good friends and I took a weekend trip to one of the most beautiful spots in America—Miami, Florida.

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We decided to do a night flight for convenience with everyone’s schedules, more like mine lol, and because airfare is usually less expensive. It was the first time for me flying at night and I actually loved it!

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Previous to this trip, I had never been to the beach before, so that was another great FIRST checked off my list. The water was perfectly blue, the sand was powdery soft, and the eclectic culture was BEAUTIFUL. I think one of my favorite precious memories there was enjoying speaking Spanglish naturally with all my Cubans, Dominicans, and Argentinians. AHHH! Just thinking about it makes me smile all over again.

Here is the Miami 2016 Vlog to get a better feel of the trip 😉

We definitely bonded as friends/sisters and cannot wait to travel some more together and individually.

2 Major Keys I Learned Overall: a. Take a vacation at least twice a year. b. God is consistently working, even when you are on “break.”

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COOL MOMENT: WE ALL GOT TO MEET CHAD VEACH! He just released his new book, Unreasonable Hope, about God’s grace in situations we don’t comprehend. He gets to share his faith journey with his lovely daughter, Georgia. And I found out he is MEXICAN. So practically, we are like best friend cousins now. haha.

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In conclusion, I have definitely been doing things that I enjoy not only as Fatima the cool Mexican, but also as the single, secure, adventurous, and young person that I am. Through the month of February, I realized that being me is fine. I am enough. I am perfect the way I am because God is with me and for me.

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I have embraced much of my flaws, my weaknesses, and this is leading me to come out with a video about my journey of Singleness.

Yes, about me being s i n g l e.

I have always rejected talking about this topic because it has such a negative connotation, my girls and I are in the same boat, and people always ask me why I am not in a relationship.

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Dude, I don’t know why. LOL. But what I do know is that I am finally truly accepting this awesome time of my life and being purposeful in all the decisions I make to extract the best out of it. 😀

This video will be up within the next month, probably after my birthday weekend! So bare with me as I prepare, record, edit, and then share.

Last but not least, thank you all for being in my life, accepting what I let you guys see of my life, and encouraging me to continue to do what I love to do—inspire you all through my daily walk. Whether it is fashion, the Word of God, or just a random hello in person that connected us, I am grateful for all of you following this blogger/vlogger.

In my DJ Khaled’s voice, “JUST KNOW” it will only get better from here.

Love you guys!

#LiveLimitless | Tima G. ❤

Pensive

 

2015 is about to end.

Wow. Can you believe that in about 3 days a new year will be here? Although I am beyond excited for what is to come, I have been reflecting a lot on what happened this past year. For me, 2015 has been a rollercoaster of growth, emotions, tests, explorations, and most importantly, self-discovery. It was a year full of transitions from relationships, to jobs, education, and even mindsets. There wasn’t a specific “season” or a month were it all was bad or great; the whole year seemed like I was growing. I was being stretched like a rubber band; at most times painful because I resisted, but at times comfortable and fun because I had reached a new level of flexibility without breaking due to so much tension around me.

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Despite all of the craziness, God has shown me His grace, comfort, faithfulness, joy, and unstoppable favor with Him and with man. Throughout the entire year, I knew things where going to change and not just because; but for the good and the perfect will for my life. I have definitely changed. I am not in the place I want to be, but I am not the same person I was last year. Testimony after testimony, I will proclaim the goodness of Jesus because He sustained me in one of the toughest years of my life. God is indeed good. I absolutely believe the best is yet to come. I believe 2016 is going to be the year of exponential success, prosperity, and abundance. Not just monetarily, but in love, in relationships, in serving, and in purpose.

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I pray that you reflect on this year, evaluate where you are, and remain hopeful on what is up for 2016. Don’t beat yourself up if you are still the same or even if you slid back into things you didn’t realize. Make the choice today to move forward; you are loved and you are great. 🙂

Love you guys!

#LiveLimitless || Tima G. ❤

Convicted

It finally feels like fall. The clouds have covered the sunlight for the last two days, and I am obsessed. The crispy white lighting is phenomenal and of course we did a shoot (shout out to my little hermano).

Clearly the weather is colder, there are multiple comfort foods, and many want to snuggle with a blanket, or let’s be real, with someone. Although everyone has their own limitations on what to eat, who to hang out with, and what to do with their time, I have realized that it is in this colder weather that we tend to relax a little too much. I believe it is necessary to rest, to take breaks, to chill, to reflect, but just because the temperature is dropping does not mean that your convictions should as well.

Conviction: a fixed or firm belief; a formal declaration that someone is guilty (dictionary.com)

Our thoughts can consume us slowly, with ideas that if we don’t take that very second, we will lose out on something in the end. I should eat the entire plate of food since I am paying for it. I should visit my “friend” after 10:30 at night because they had to work late. I should get those shoes now since I won’t have the extra money in December. I should not tell my boss I have been 10 late all this week and punched in the correct time I’m supposed to be there. We lack  awareness of  those small thoughts that have a snowball effect and in the long run end up controlling us.

So what am I saying here? That I like to pin-point your mistakes? Not at all. I am bringing awareness to my own life about exercising self-control and sharing my journey. Self control is not about knowing what to do correctly–we all have an idea of what is right, yet many of us do not do it. I lacked self-control in my eating habits for about two months; I was malnourishing my body. I lacked self-control in my shopping habits, going to the store every single week to see what I could add to my closet. I lacked self-control in not spending time with God consistently every morning and just trying to fit Him in my schedule. And so many more things….but I was convicted, brought awareness to these patterns and have allowed the Holy Spirit to help me change them.

“You may believe there’s nothing wrong with what you are doing, but keep it between yourself and God. Blessed are those who don’t feel guilty for doing something they have decided is right. But if you have doubts about whether or not you should eat something, you are sinning if you go ahead and do it. For you are not following your convictions. If you do anything you believe is not right, you are sinning.” Romans 14:22-23

Because I had doubts about certain decisions, I was missing the mark. I was jeopardizing my beliefs. I was straight up sinning. Sin is not just the big, obscure, and gargantuan action I take. It is the everyday action I take against the truth (God’s Word) and my personal beliefs.

Practically, I have limited my in take of sugar, coffee, fast food, and white flour. I have extended my shopping money for purchasing gifts for others and not just for self-gratification. I have an alarm that encourages me to get up earlier than usual to read God’s word and worship regardless of what I have going during the day. I am not being legalistic with these modifications; they are minute changes that help me be more productive and effective as a young believer. It might seem extreme to some. All I know and believe is that food, money, and time make up our daily lives and however we utilize them affect us in the long run.

What are YOU doing consistently that has overtaken your personal convictions? In what areas of your life have you lacked self-control? Take time and examine your everyday habits. And of course, be encouraged and know that God ALWAYS helps us in our weaknesses (2 Cor. 12:10). Know that you have a Best Friend that desires to help you be the best and the realest you (John 14:16). And know that God cares about the smallest things you care about as well (Psalm 37:23). Make goals and take the steps necessary to break the bad habits. Love you guys!

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DETAILS- Denim Top: Thrifted; Jeans: Ross; Duster: F21; Adidas Superstars: Foot Locker

#LiveLimitless || Tima G. ❤

Fall Faves Tag

 

Two weeks ago, I logged into IG for an OOTD post, and one of the coolest girls I have never met tags me to do her tag. I am eccentric about this because I don’t know Mauree but I know Mauree in a way. LOL. She is related to one of the most powerful and amazing Christian leaders rising in Tulsa and I am not sure how I didn’t figure that she would be as awesome or probably even more. 🙂 I am hoping we get to meet soon (like this year soon) and do some kind of collab. We shall see.

Before I get to the Q&A, I have done one in the past, recorded on video, but ultimately it ended up being trashed because I was looking ratch, I rambled on and on, and was not great quality. Doing it in type format is easier, but eventually I want to do more work with video. IF any of you have suggestions on what camera I should invest in, please let me know in the comments before this Thanksgiving. 🙂

Without further due, here are my answers to the Fall Fave’s Tag.

1. What’s your favorite fall memory? 

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My favorite fall memory… Good question. I don’t know if this counts as my all-time favorite, but I do miss walking to class during the fall semester in college (OKSTATE). I know, I know, it sounds lame, but I seriously enjoyed walking through our library lawn, crossing Monroe, and even bumping into people while trying to get to class.

2. What’s your favorite fall drink?

I really enjoy drinking white chocolate mochas, but I have recently discovered hazelnut lattes, and they are pretty close in the run for the number one spot.

3. What’s your favorite fall clothing item? 

I would say leather jackets, but that is an all-year, everywhere I go, if I was buried I would want to wear one type of item. So, this year I have to say my favorite item is my pair of pointed toe black booties. OMG. They are a must have. Comfortable. Fashion-forward. Classic.

4. What’s one item that you want to add to your closet this fall?

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This question is hard because I always want to add and take away from my closet, but the top item I envision myself wearing is a poncho. I have been wanting one since my job has received that inventory. I would love a Burberry Brit one, but let’s be real, 99.9% of me is not willing to pay that fortune. Nevertheless, I want one. lol

5. What’s your favorite fall scent? 

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I don’t have one at the moment. I prefer clean and fresh scents–my 2 signature scents are Chance Eau Fraîche Eau de Toilette Spray by CHANEL and Daisy Eau So Fresh by Marc Jacobs. But I want to branch out and try something new– ie. Love Story by Chloe or Dahlia Noir by Givenchy (in which are warmer and richer scents; hence, fall appropriate).

6. What’s your favorite fall movie(s)?

If I could watch a movie over and over again in the fall, it would be Drumline. The reason being, they are in football season, the band is dope, and I just love the connection Nick Cannon and Zoe Saldana have in this college romantic.

7.  What’s your favorite fall beauty product?

I love beauty products, especially highlighters. BUT what has won me over in the matter of hours of purchasing it is my Kiehl’s LIP BALM #1 in mint. Seriously a life saver for this cold and harsh season that dries up my lips easily. I apply before wearing lipliners/lipsticks/glosses/stains/etc. and after exfoliating, right before I go to sleep. Great must have.

8. What’s your favorite comfort food?

I am a sucker for chips and salsa. And chips and queso. And chips and guac. It does not help that I am Mexican because I am always eating these things.

9. What’s your favorite fall candle?

I am not a big fan of the pumpkin, spiced apple pie, jazz. As I mentioned previously, I prefer clean and fresh scents. But one of my favorite candles is Apres Ski by NEST. Seriously, a potent smell that is freshly delightful.

10. What song gets you in the fall spirit?

I love the Zion Acoustic Album by Hillsong United. My favorite song of the album is Mercy, Mercy, and I have looped it over and over this past week.

Details- Denim Jacket: Gap; Denim Jeans: Burberry Brit; Hat: Gifted; Tunic: F21; Booties: JustFab

Hope you guys got to know me a little bit more. And I want to shout Mauree out one more time for being an awesome and inspiring blogger to me, and many others. 🙂

Until next time… Love you guys!

#LiveLimitless || Tima G.

Enough

The more I am doing, the more I have to be dependent on God and His word. I have gone two days with only 4-5 hours of sleep in the last week alone (not the same as rest). Best believe, those two days I drank coffee like no other. I have two jobs in two different towns, in which I am more than thankful for, I am somewhat of a full-time bible school student at the best college, Victory Bible College (part time off-campus and part time on-campus), I coordinate social media for one of my jobs and the best local church ever, Transformation Church, and I am a co-facilitator for one of the multiple belong groups we have as a church. Among all these things, I try to stay fit by exercising when I can, I make time to spend with loved ones, and also try to make time for myself.

I am sure other people have it worse than I do, but I have never been so stretched in my life with time. College at OSU was awesome, and it was pretty challenging as well because I was a full-time student then and commuted every weekend back home to work and attend my church. But now, this year is beyond that because I am more mature, meaning I am able to handle more, meaning I am challenged in different areas, meaning I need more time management, meaning I have to plan, meaning I have to prioritize, meaning some things have to be cut off my life (permanently or for this season), meaning I have to grow up lol. Who really wants to grow up though? That only means responsibility, right?

So much responsibility, demand, and pressure can make you feel as if you are not enough, and let me tell you, I have lived my entire life with that mindset. Through bible school, my deepest thoughts (beliefs) have been challenged like C R A Z Y, specifically thinking that I am not enough.

Enough: as much; as many as required; sufficient; as much as necessary (dictionary.com)

I picked up the mindset of not being “sufficient” or “as much as required” at a very young age, probably when I was in middle school. And through various situations, that thought was “strengthened” in a way that I began to believe that was the truth about me. But that is one of the biggest deceptions of the devil. When we truly believe in Jesus (the Word), we become One with Him/have agreement with Him (1 Cor. 6:17), just as He is One with the Father (John 10:30). This means He (the Word) becomes a part of us—Our Strength. I am not enough in my own strength—I fail very consistently in multiple areas. But by learning to lean on His strength and completely higher thinking (His Word), I have trained myself to think about His truth more than what I was raised to believe.

2 Cor. 12:9 “Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”

As I began to reflect on how much God has done for me thus far, I am completely overwhelmed by His love and grace. From being dreadfully insecure, to learning to manage my time efficiently, I am doing the small and the big things for His strength to be shown through my life, even when I fail at the age of 23. The only reason why I am complete and enough is because Christ is in my weaknesses and He enables my strengths.

Through learning to believe this daily and wholeheartedly, I have also been learning to enjoy it all, and when I say all, I mean all. It hurts to fail, especially coming from a background of straight A’s, always doing right/being the good girl, and trying to please people. But even this week, I have learned to laugh at ALL of my failing moments. I am not a clumsy person, but this week alone I have dropped more food on myself than ever and tripped way too often. My first response has been to be annoyed, mad, and just disappointed at myself! -___- But now, I have continuously burst out in laughter with the knowing that it is okay to fail and to not be always the “perfect” one. It is okay to have imperfections, it is okay to bump my head as I get in my car, it is okay for me to miss a step on the stairs; it is all okay. It is all part of the maturing process we are called to and I definitely am enjoying it all.

Be encouraged by God’s word. He delights being the strength of your life. So allow God’s Word to become just that. Don’t limit Him; live limitless.

Details| Shoes: Charlotte Russe, Jeans: Ross, Top: My job Beau and Arrow 🙂

Love you all!

-Tima G.